I haven’t been on here in maybe a year? I would like to say that i was goin through the worst part in my life thus far, and last month my Dr. took me off ALL my medication. That’s right people, no more horsepills, iron pills, or steroids for this girl! I get depressed still from time to time, but it’s much more controllable. This site has helped me vent everything I couldn’t say before. My weight came back, my boobs came back, all the steroid acne went away and i am back to being the blonde that everyone checked out. My self confidence has […]
so i cut my first time yesterday night while listening to werewolves by cocorosie. i can handle havin all the effects tht comes wit chrons. ive adapted to tht, i never had to resolve to cuttin. it was my mom tht pushed me over. who would of thought, the person whos suppose to love u the most, based simply on the act tht u shared a body for 9 months. it was her, the mom whos not a mom. the one who said i had an attitude, tht i only think, only care about myself. tht im selfish and worthless, all i see is me. […]
It has come to my attention that my disease is never going away. It is incurable. I’ve recently talked to a woman that is now 83, who has been on pills for this since she was 18. I’m 16. Never again can i spend the night, spur of the moment. If i miss too many pills they tell me my body will go into shock. That’s nice. I’m worried about my future, can i even have a child? I’ve researched that it may be complicated, depending. I have a higher chance for getting cancer. I have a chance of going blind. All these nice little […]
Suicide. That thing that describes the action that people want to take upon themselves, to end ones life. To get away from there problems, there thoughts, there own personal hell that they created. This action has crossed my mind many times. I’ve recently been diagnosed with chrons disease, and the physical and mental torture that comes with that is too much. I had suicidal thoughts before this, and when added its becoming a struggle. 6 months before i went to Dr.s to get it checked out i would experience extreme stomach area pain, everyday, all day. When they diagnosed me with it they prescribed medication. […]