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vaaaaanna

Nothing extreme, just me doing to the same shit everyday(:

Just a question? Please, if you can (:

by vaaaaanna 10/13/2014

written by vaaaaanna

So I’m currently writing an assignment for my mental health and well-being paper. The aim of this assignment is to examine the different pathways in which a well-being of an individual is enhanced.

Now, this may seem super random because compared to my other posts. I’ve never really done this. But I was wondering, if anyone, and I mean ANYONE would like to contribute.

What I really wanted to know is, when you think of that one happy moment..just that ONE HAPPY moment, what do you feel? & What is it that makes you feel that way?

Another is forgiveness. Has anyone ever taken the courage to forgive […]

10/13/2014 4 comments

Shit the longest!!! Read if you can (:

by vaaaaanna 6/27/2014

written by vaaaaanna

Sitting here looking back at how I use to be, I can’t even remember what I was thinking.

Searching for razors in the cabinet, was like seeking treasure.Frustration running through my veins when I couldn’t find one and I had resorted myself to using a kitchen knife, later on hiding that knife. The feel of a sharp blade pressed against my skin, consciously aware that I’ll be dripping soon and the adrenaline rush. It was like an external use of drug. As I grazed my skin with the razor, my level of satisfaction increased and my care for the world and the people around me diminished. It […]

6/27/2014 7 comments

Education & Social – that feeling.

by vaaaaanna 5/3/2014

written by vaaaaanna

Well fuck its been a while since I last posted something on here. Just another dose of disappointment and frustration, have no other way to vent but post it up. Because no one likes that sorta shit up on facebook! LOL

ANYWAYS, how is everyone doing? Great I hope, but by the looks of all these post. Not looking too flash atm huh? Don’t you wish you could just turn back time & change things only because you’ve disappointed yourself for the decisions that you’ve made and you don’t want anyone else to know? Yes, no…maybe? haha its is a terrible feeling, especially if you’re the […]

5/3/2014 2 comments

Hello Beautifuls (:

by vaaaaanna 9/25/2013

written by vaaaaanna

Wow it’s been awhile since I last read through all these stories.

All I have to say to all you beautiful human beings that are feeling low and depressed, or thinking of the most craziest shit to do? Is SMILEEEEEEE (: From one ear to another, stretch that smile of yours. Who knows, you might just make someones day with that beautiful smile.

Be happy, or well you could TRY and be happy. If it doesn’t work? Smoke a blunt. haha kidding (: Have a dance in your room, put those earphones on maximum volume and dance like its the end of the world. I promise you, […]

9/25/2013 4 comments

Bestfriends?

by vaaaaanna 10/8/2012

written by vaaaaanna

There are those that you trust & those that you enjoy spending time with right?

My friend is leaving the country for a long time. Happy for him, better life where his going anyways! I’ve helped him out when he had his huuuuge fallout with his ex, I was the “shoulder to cry on” friend. He was aaalways calling me his bestfriend, being appreciative about my existence and shared with me everything he thought I should know. ha sooo I could say I was pretty much his little treasure box, we were good friends! I didn’t see him more or less than a friend, sooo he […]

10/8/2012 6 comments

idk what to do -__-

by vaaaaanna 9/21/2012

written by vaaaaanna

I’ve received most of my exam results & its good enough for me. But it will never be good enough for father, so I haven’t shown him yet. I’ve given it all I can, but I know he will still not be satisfied with it! Lately I’ve been staying at the library late to do better in this essay, because I know that it HAAASS TO BE better than the last.

The old man hasn’t been speaking to me lately, and I know that something is cooking in that head of his. I just found out that he thinks I’ve been out and about NOT at […]

9/21/2012 5 comments

Stop the conversation…

by vaaaaanna 8/31/2012

written by vaaaaanna

Studying to be a nurse, and we had a session in class where the topic had to do with suicide. Understandable when my country has a high rate of male suicide. But the atmosphere in the room got sooo intense that I could feel my heart throbbing. I just wanted to get out of the room but I was cornered by objects!

I noticed that those in the room who did not dare to speak (including myself) were ones that have experienced this, or knows a friend whose attempted to commit suicide or has even died. 2 people walked out of the room crying! I know […]

8/31/2012 4 comments

The closest things…

by vaaaaanna 8/31/2012

written by vaaaaanna

Talking to the wall/air/teddy/cat is much more comfortable and easier than talking to someone in person.

Even though it sounds bit crazy, but think about it. Because whenever I get the chance to talk to someone about what’s going on, they respond with words that I don’t want to hear. Or I’ve just lost that feeling of comfort! Whereas the other things, it just sinks right in to the object…

_Drains Away_

8/31/2012 4 comments