I am finished with my life and i will finish it this time. I have written my goodbye letters and have arranged everything so that i will finaly be able to leave this world.
All that is left is to apologise to the people on this site who i have promised to keep on trying, but have instead let them down. Also i want to say thank you to all the lovely people who have commented on my post with caring comments. Because of you guys i can at least leave this world with a tiny bit of happiness. You guys have given me […]
I’m done with my life. I can’t stand the raping and bullying at my school anymore. I can’t stand how my “friends” keep on back stabbing me. I don’t want to keep on having to cry myself asleep because of a guy who i love but for him i’m only another sex toy. I can’t take it how my family just watches from a far how i slowly brake down. And most of all i can’t take the people anymore who say they want to help but then turn around and don’t come back. Whats the piont in living if you only feel pain?! […]
i am offically the whore of our school! why? because when a guy grabs my ass or pretends to grab my boobs i don’t slap or push him away like the other girls do…but not because i like it…i HATE it but i’m scared of the guys…even though they are kinda of my friends none of them would wait a second to slap me.. i know so because they allready have once when i pushed a “friend” of mine away because he had grabbed my boob he came back to me pushed me againts the wall and slaped me and told me to never do […]
I finaly took the courage to tell my friend what is going on in my life, i told her about the cutting, the attempts on suicide and i told the reasons; betrayal by the guy i loved, betrayal by my family and also the back stabbing and bullying by my school mates.
Her response: “OMG your a freak! Get over it everybody has problems, but they don’t go killing them selves right away!”
Maybe i am overreacting, maybe i am being stupid and all those things are not really a proper reason to kill myself, but right there and then i wanted comfort, i […]
He promised me i could trust him, he promised me i could believe in him, he promised me he would care for me, he promised me he would never make me cry, he promised he would catch me if i fell, but most of all he promised me he truly loved me…… But guess what?! Every single one of those promises were a lie! He broke me. It felt like he had just suddenly leaned forward and ripped my heart out. And now i have a huge whole inside of me, which gives me the feelings of lonelyness, helpless, sadness…..suicidal…
I keep and keep and keep on cutting my wrists! I’m probaly addicted to it and i want to stop, but i can’t! Because after something happens again and i feel like jumping of the next best bridge,i cut myself to relax and it just feels so good, but i know i shouldn’t be doing it, but how do i stop? It makes me feel so happy and how does someone stop doing sonething that makes them feel happy? Help please!?
I never actually thought i would end up like this, i was always so happy. No that is a lie. Now when i think back i notice i ACTED like i was happy but on the inside i had already died a long time ago. I’m not even 16 and i allready want to end my life so badly! And i can’t tell anyone about these feelings these suicidal thoughs because no one kann really understand me. I used to get bullied alot because of my nationality, of how i spoke, how i looked and how i acted. Four years long not a day went […]