i really feel like im going to die. i cant take this. i dont know what to do. i wish there was a way i could make him understand that if he takes a chance on me everything will be ok. i wish i could ease his mind, do something. i dont know. i cant live like this. i wish he could see. im sorry. i love him more than anything in the world. i dont know what to do. i cant move.
im going to take a shower now. maybe ill stay in there all day. i dont know. i dont know what to do. i cant calm down. i cant do anything. i literally want to die. i feel like im dying every second. i want a better life, but since i cant, living is more and more painful every second. i cant breathe. i cant do anything. i want to die. i cant handle this. there is no way i can fight every second about things i am not able to prove. i am fighting against someone who has made up their mind and has […]
oh my god. i cant change the past. i wish i could. i can only keep trying to make now and the future better. i wish i could change the past. i dont know what to do. oh my god. are you kidding me?! i dont know what to do. there has to be something i can do. why does he always have to assume hes correct?! why cant he understand he is wrong sometimes?! oh my god. i dont know what to do.
i really do want to die because i know as long as im alive this is going to eat at me. […]
i’m going to die if i keep trying to prove to him that he’s wrong. or im going to die sitting here knowing hes wrong about this and all of the other things hes wrong about. he doesn’t understand that even though he’s been right about some things, that doesn’t mean he is always right. he thinks im a cookie cutter of somebody else, or another story, or things he’s read, etc. im not, i’m my own person. i dont know what to do. im going to die sitting here. this is why all i want to do is sleep. i love him more than […]
my entire body hurts. i cant eat anything. i just want to sleep forever.
please i will do anything. i literally can’t breathe right now. i cant live like this. i dont know what to do. please i would give anything.
i want to crawl into a hole. i am completely empty. i dont know what to do. there has to be something i can do. ugh i thought i needed to rant on here. im so empty. i cant form more sentences.
i really can’t. im too far broken. now, because he is completely irrational, i will never see him again. he knows i never ever wanted to call the police on him and i told them specifically there is nothing violent going on, i just need him to leave. why couldn’t he have just let me gone to sleep?! i did not want to call the police! he knows that! there are so many things that he said that are not true, they’re just what he believes. i feel destroyed. i wish i had more benedryll so i could just sleep my life away. i have […]
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