I keep questioning it. Life. You know that thing we are somehow supposed to be grateful for and think that we are supposed to feel that it is worth living. My friends don’s see the signs anymore and part of me likes it that way. They do not know how depressed I am or how painful life is. Most of my friends aren’e even there anymore so its not like they are paying attention anyway. Life just feels like its ripping me in two. It feels like everything is ripping at my soul and mind. It feels like now that my friends are gone I […]
Lately, everyone else in my life seems to be feeling their luck change or life starts going their way and I seem to be trying as hard as I can, yet nothing. I keep crying hoping it will be my turn, yet it never seems to get there. Everyone says have hope life gets better, yet after all of this time, life seems to just drag on and I can’t keep going like this. I keep a lot of this from my friends because I know it would scare them if they knew what was going on in my head. I don’t want them to […]