I’ve decided to blow a large amount of cash from my next unemployment check and purchase a bus ticket to California. I have never been to the beach. I have never been out west. I’m going to take a bus there and not tell anyone. I’ll stay until I have enough money to come back to Pennsylvania. When I return, i’m going to kill myself. It is the only thing I can think about and the only thing that quiets my racing mind and brings me solace. I have lost literally everything that has ever mattered to me. Some of it was my fault, some […]