I cut again…. Its so hard to not to stop….. My leg hurt and my heart….
-Morgan……RawrIamTurtle
Hi, my names Morgan and I'm 16 years old. I have self harmed. I have been depressed since grade 7. And I'm in grade 10 now. I've been bullied and all theat crap. But yah my story isn't that bad as some. Not near as bad... My favourite colour is yellow and I love turtles. That's why my name is RawrImaTurtle <3 I love music. But only the good kind and I live everyday like my last! Or at least try. I'm suicidal.... I tried to end it 2 times but didn't have the gust.. Maybe some day right? i have anorexia and bulimia..
I cut again…. Its so hard to not to stop….. My leg hurt and my heart….
-Morgan……RawrIamTurtle
I’m fighting to try not to cut, tho i hurt so much!
i don’t want to cut. i really don’t. but its so hard. and its probably helping that I’m not clue to any scissors right now. but later tonight i will be.. and i don’t know if i will be able to handle it… sometimes I’m glad I’m lazy…. but gosh i want to cut myself… i want the pain of my heart be pushed away with the pain of the cut…
🙁
-Morgan…..RawrImaTurtle
today i had my oral report 🙂 it went pretty good. no one asked questions or anything. but my face didn’t get all red like usual. Â it was easy (ish) Â haha.
well yesterday i got my friend to draw a butterfly on my leg (where i cut) hopefully you all know what the butterfly project is. and i haven’t cut in 3 days 🙂 I’m kinda proud of myself.
-Morgan………….RawrIamTurtle
http://www.facebook.com/DepressionHurts
who else is sick of stereotypes and people judging? i know i am, but i also know i judge as well. tho i try not to..
well my half idea is.. we should do something about it don’t you think? i want to do something like on the movie ‘pay it forward’ if you haven’t seen that movie watch the trailer, you will still understand :). but the thing is, my brain runs dry when i try to think of what do to. so i need some help. i think this project will keep me busy. so my depression might be pushed to the back of […]
im sick and tired of people calling me ugly, or saying i look like a dude, or have a “boyish face” I’m sick of people saying “I’d pick ____ over morgan any day”
becuz when i look in the mirror. I’m happy with what i see, i feel beautiful. and in my mind i think i am. even tho i get called ugly at least once a week.
i just don’t get how not many other people can see that I’m beautiful like how i see myself.
i have been texting my friend (he’s a guy) for the past week. and today he told me “i like making […]
Right now i feel like i can do anything! right now i don’t give a crap about what people think of me, i don’t care if they think I’m lame becuz I’m  “emo” i could really care less..
im in such a good mood, i haven’t been like this for ages. i know it won’t last long but I’m gonna enjoy it 🙂
i wish i felt this good all the time.. i wish there was no such thing as depression. and everyone could be happy. but in re1ality thats highly unlikely.
-RAWIMATURTLE!
to all those people who don’t understand what depression is like.
have you ever hated someone so much that every time you looked at them you’d get so pissed you want to just go punch them in the face? Â or that when you look at there pictures on Facebook or something and you get so jealous becuz they also seem so happy and they have it all?
well i use to be friends with this one girl. as soon as we drifted apart she seemed so happy. Â and now she has everything she could ever have, she’s pretty than me, id have to say she kinda seems like a slut (pardon my language) but i guess thats […]
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
we’ve all had are bad days, correct? and we’ve all taken it out on other people who didn’t deserve it, also correct?
we all need to remember that when someone flips on you for know reason, its usually becuz something else has happened..
also most of use on hear are still young. we still have most of our life left. so how about we stop and watch the clouds for a bit. i think that would be a great idea. i also think i should listen to my own advice. and I’m going to try. i really am.
to the people who self harm, i do it to. […]
i know its bad but I’ve started cutting again… and i don’t get it becuz these past few days I’ve been happy. so why am i cutting again? this makes no sense to me….
aslo i know I’m only 14.. and this may sound pretty depurate or pathetic but i don’t care… i want someone to look forward to seeing me everyday and hugging me everyday.. i want someone to really love me like how “true love” is in the movies…. but i have a feeling i’ll be waiting a while..
also i still feel like somethings missing inside of me.. I’m still empty..
i don’t get […]
Depression
Depression can be a terrible thing. Some people may not think it; But Depression is a mental health disorder.  Depression is were you’re basically sad for usually a long period of time.
Some people wonder what the signs and symptoms of depression are. So I’m going to tell you a few:
A constant feeling of sadness, anxiety, and emptiness
The person feels hopeless
Individuals can feel restless
Patients may lose interest in activities or hobbies they once enjoyed
Levels of energy feel lower
 Hard to concentrate, remember details, and make decisions
Sleep patterns are disturbed – the person may sleep too little or too much
Eating habits may change – he/she may either eat […]
kay so for those of you who know, I’m doing an oral report about depression. and i got this so far”
“Depression can be a terrible thing. Some people may not think it, But Depression is a mental health disorder.  Depression is were you’re basically sad for usually a long period of time.
Some people wonder what the signs and symptoms of depression are. so im going to tell you a few:
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A constant feeling of sadness, anxiety, and emptiness
The person feels hopeless
Individuals can feel restless
Patients may lose interest in activities or hobbies they once enjoyed
Levels of energy feel lower
 Hard to concentrate, remember details, and […]
im happy, for once i woke up happy. im having a good day and hopefully it lasts.
since im being positive again instead of being so negative im gunna say a few words
Dear Everyone on this site.
i want you all to stay strong and keep your head up high, yes i know its difficult. but it is true what some people say. if you want to be happy sometimes you just have to tell yourself “im going to be happy today” and be very positive about it.
no one decides you future but you. and make every day count.
if your bullied stay strong and stick up […]
i don’t know why bu listening to piano calms me down. here’s a good song. and i happen to hate twilight. but i love this song. i hope to be this good at piano one day
enjoy 🙂
Depression isn’t just a temporary mood swing or a sign of personal weakness. It’s a serious medical condition with many emotional, cognitive, physical and behavioural symptoms.
Many people feel ashamed or afraid to seek help, others make light of their symptoms leading them to suffer in silence. It’s important to remember that depression isn’t a character defect or something that you have brought on yourself.1
Who Does Depression Hurt?
During their lifetime about 1 in 10 people in Canada will experience an episode of major depressive disorder (the diagnosis given to those suffering from depression)
Unfortunately many people, unaware of how common depression is, avoid […]
in English we have to give an oral project on something we pick, i am picking depression and suicide. and why people get depressed. and feel theres no way out.. since this is how i feel i can relate to it. but i think i need more ideas. so if your willing to share why your depressed or suicidal, please share to give me ideas. and when im done the report i will post it on here for everyone to read.
so please comment your answers please, and thank you. 🙂
-Morgan.
I like this guy… a lot… but he only wants me sexually. and it hurts so much.. people say i should just move on and forget about him, but i can’t.. i even do these sexual things with him becuz i can’t lose him.. and i feel thats the only way to keep him in my life…
i want to keep him in my life…. i can’t lose him… not after all the other people who have left me.. i wouldn’t be able to handle if anyone else left me…..
-Morgan
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