MrSebastior

So yeah, what do you believe happens? and why?

I think we either go to a spiritual realm or reincarnation. I have my own theory about reincarnation but i can’t explain it, it’s like explaining exactly how big the universe is.

And the spiritual realm, well, it just seems natural to me

I’ll start off by telling you the reasons i wanna die.

I’m a major emetophobe, i have major ocd (people trying to help me said i’m one of their worst case), paranoid, manic depression, anger issues, social anxiety. Mainly my phobia makes me wanna die. And the fact that everyone on this planet is brainwashed, trusting the government thinking they’ll protect us when really they got all our moves and words recorded so they can kill all the poor ones. And they even expect us to trust them when they have all these secret societies and groups that they swear don’t exist and when you get […]

Okay so i wanna make my suicide look like an accident.

but the thing is, i’m a MAJOR emetophobe (phobia of puking/feeling sick)

And i wanna OD and make it look like an accident.

i have access to zopiclone, alimemazine and i MIGHT be able to get blood pressure pills that lower blood pressure

my questions is, how the fuck do people die accidentally? you hear it all the time on the news, how do they do it? and like eminem, did he even use alcohol when he overdosed? i wanna just take the pills and accidentally die, taht’s my goal

How do you wanna die?

What are you gonna do? when? where? how? and why?

AND COULD SOMEONE SUICIDAL EMAIL ME WHO’S PLANNING ON OVERDOSING, I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO

MrSebastior @ gmail . com

Okay so, does anyone here believe in 2012? if so, what do you think is gonna happen?

i think that, if there solar storm thing doesn’t happen, i think there’s gonna be a flood from the south and/or north pole

How, when and why are you planning to go?

Personally, i ain’t decided when yet, probably sometime soon though, and i’ma go for ligature asphyxiation, and as for why, well, it’s a long story and i cba typing it again, i’ve already written a few life story posts

So i’m falling back into a depressed state again.

I’m thinking of maybe finding another method, idk yet

Is anyone here gonna do ligature asphyxiation? ’cause that’s what i’m planning, but i wanna talk to someone who’s gonna do it too, so yeah, hit me up

MrSebastior @ gmail . com

Okay so i’m thinking of maybe doing partial hanging

so i have 2 sweatpants ropes or whatever tied together, i have a few of these type of ropes, 4 actually, should i spin some of them together to make it stronger?

but idk, it might fuck it up so it doesn’t tighten as well

Okay so i got out of the depression for a while, found my way back into music.

But now i’m depressed again and i’ll prolly give up music again, i’m looking for a new method to end it all with, my friend, won’t say his name, tried my method and it didn’t work, and i don’t even know if i’m doing it right, i think i used to get it right, but yeah, gonna look around for some methods now.

If i can’t find anything i’ll prolly go back to my old method, ligature asphyxiation

I know we’re not supposed to talk about methods here and shit, so this post’ll prolly be deleted

but what’s your method of choice? are you combining methods?

mine’s ligature asphyxiation

41 years since you died Jimi, may you rest in piece

Give it a listen, here

one of my favourite songs by him

R.I.P Cory

sept 13, like pac.

i ain’t known you for long, but i’ma miss you, still. tell pac i said hi man

R.I.P Cory

Since i love psychedelic rock, i thought i’d share a song for the fun of it

Morgen – Love

Example – You Can\’t Rap some of his songs are shitty RnB, club type shit, but You Can’t Rap, So Many Roads and What We Made are the ones i can think of right now that are hip hop

if anyone is into hip hop, go to www.hyperaptive.com then Lyrics & Songs and just pick a song, i’ll link one of my favourite songs from him

http://www.hyperaptive.com/medication.html

It’s been a while, a few weeks or so i think.

i kinda slipped out of the depressed state, but i’m kinda falling back into it i guess, if i do fall back into it like before, i’m thinking of leaving september 18th ’cause that’s when jimi hendrix died.

so yeah, anyway, some updates.

i had a job for about 5 days, then i got fired or some shit, idk why, i was late once but i did my job properly. i’ma take a piss test this week too i think, hope i pass so i’ll be prescribed with anti anxiety pills.

i guess that’s it

idk if you read my comment, but add my yahoo

MrSebastior@yahoo.co.uk

alrighty so i might not go today as i planned to. but i will go sometime this week.

i tried to enter the school building but i couldn’t, social anxiety. so i took the bus back home. and i know i won’t be able to handle school.

so yeah i’ma off myself soon now

idk what to say, i’ve already told you all so many times. so i’m just gonna say bye.

goodbye.

for all your concern, those that tried to change my mind. to you all i can say is, i’ve already made my mind and i’m going as soon as i’m know i’m doing my method.

thank you all for wishing me luck and all, i appreciate it. peace

ENGLISHBOY IF YOU’RE READING THIS, I GOT A COUPLE QUESTIONS I NEEDA ASK YOU;

So, when i block the carotids, i pretty much don’t feel anything, kinda light headed i suppose, is it still working right?

and, if it isn’t, or if it’s partly right, what am i supposed to feel then?

I don’t know how many times i’ve said i’m leaving, too many times though, that’s for sure. this time i’m leaving though. i feel dead inside, empty and hollow. i don’t mean to sound like an emo but y’know. i’m quite excited about this, and the thought of it maybe making it into the news, my old friends that left me might hear it, it excites me. i feel like a dick though, for leaving my loved ones, i hope they understand though.

my suicide letter’s done, 2 pages + a personal note to mum and some of my belongings in my drawer, a heart she […]