Aint helping this aint making me feel better so fuck it im off of this and dealing with things. Hope the best for me !
Yes im crazy, have issues but I dont need ni mother fucking doctors in pysco hospitals telling me what to.do, dont need therepist talking likebthey know me and I sure dont need help all I need is somev alcholo and a plan…im pist, stress,lonely and depress that explains it all >:O
When you cry im there
Tears, im here
You scare I fight your fears
Why cant you do it in return.
You say so why am I.still in your life, why am I an asshole, the making fun of name calling when your suppose to be the love of my life. The abuse hits for every word but I stick around cuz you are my world.
Stop
Dont do it
Im here
FOREVER, iloveyou
Words you say when im on the edge but do you mean it or is it cuz you dont wanna be left alone, maybe you just dont wanna witness the dealth […]
Im noticing life is a challenge we gotta get passed, that suicide is a thought but doesnt have to be done. Days could get better even if its small, you see things or people you gotta stay alive for. You may have a better future so dont end a life for what happen in the past or the present cuz it gets better, live for the future <3
•My turning point in life – realizing suicide is just a thought dont have to let it take control , xoxo you not alone <3
Dont know what this day will take me ,Dont know if ill see that sunlight with the newyork lights for another day. After midnight everything is up to your dreams but what if the dream visions me not being able to sleep nor see. Maybe ill sit by the bridge waiting for my world to ended or maybe ill think of ending it standin on the edge prepare to die ..
So called fathers be a man and appreciate your sons or daughters..to me you aint even a dad your dead to me you could drop low and it wont mean shit to me. Iwasnt shit to you talking about how I cant be nothing, icant do nothing and way more, even hit me at a young age but not now cuz you know I aint afraid of you ill kill you you baster, so for those who have a real good father appreciate it !
My family tree aint that good, Dad is an ass hole, always sayin I cant do nothing , mom hates that im not girly they both hate the fact im lesbian I want my future family tree to be better than what I have I want my girlfriend tgat ihave now for 2years to be my wife, have a beautiful home 2kids and a puppy.. NO yelling, NO abuse, NO put downs just being a happy family :’) :/
Yea newyork is nice but the ghetto isnt brooklyn,bronx,queens we all face it we are exspected to reach that manhatten fame of lights and money when its hard to find a job. Nice clothes aint everything if you dont like the way you are in the outside. Point is no matter where you come from we all struggle but do we have the strength to live a better life ?
No body loves me, nobody see’s the tears that falls down. Iscream but you cant hear me to busy hearing everybody else. You said you loved me but why choose something over me tgat means nothing. You said I was the only one so why pick that instead of being with me forever looks like 2years was full of lies on both parts but the ending was your fault. I cry for nights wishing I was perfect, wishing I was worth it if I.was maybe we will still be together. I have issues but cant blame it on them because its in me. Imight kill […]
Everybody hurts each and every individual, cheats on somebody, loved somebody, ruined somebodys life etc
Just got to face the fact that you cant go back into tim, cant say or do things you wish you have said or did
Face the fact that you have to learn to forget or forgive even both in some situations…its hard but for me its worth trying!
Fuck the world and the government They put a label on you when your born. Boys are blue and girls are pink why are they so sexes im lesbian and it makes it harder to live with all the rules think like a girl act like a lady..well im like a man in a girls body and gay boys its okay to be feminem like I said we dont need to be label and for HomoPhobs fuck off because you have NO clue what its like to be like us !!
THANKYOU !
Everybody wants to be a somebody weather you doing right or wrong. I want to be always remeber maybe by dealth or even being the one who couldnt do.nothing either way I left my mark but if you think about it thats a fantasy because nowa days its hard to be a somebody !
Pills make the pain numb but still have that mind spinning.
The truth is once you get depressed, suicidal its.hard to turn to normal. People use the word normal like they know the definition, apparently idont fit that group. Truth is people are going to hurt you but got to have strength, for me ihave no strength, no mind and no hope. To everybody society actualy hates us and makes us feel bad about our self and tries to make each individual seem crazy, most take it well but for others like me well you get the picture… :/ Icould try to change but the truth is im staying the same !
I sit alone, all alone talking to myself with each music note playing in the backround . I just need somebody to say its okay im here and never think of leavin me. I wish the child hood I had was perfect but it wasnt it was only me crying with marks to prove it, to prove that this is the start of my lonely life, my sorrow. :/
Heart breaks into millions, im still standing, You chase me down and broke it when I.was trying to believe and dream but these scars wont bleed because the one I love took it all.
I will continue facing life with pain, heartbreaks and of course the pressure of society. Im falling apart but i would rather feel pain then dealth because I have the power to decide. Imiss the smiles and kisses you gave me but I face the prints on my neck and face just to know at the end you love me.