I have crippling body dysmorphic disorder. Is it better to just leave or to leave a suicide note?
mylifeisover
I can’t seem to be able to kill myself. My life is too beautiful. I just don’t fit into it anymore because I made myself a fucking monster.
My body is decaying 🙁 literally. Breaking down and I’m too scared to commit suicide. I’m not even sure I am able to I somewhere and be a hermit anymore because of how bad my health is. I’m an idiot. I did this to myself. I miss my old life so much.
So, I don’t know how I got here with my life… visiting a suicide forum and feeling serious about it. I was the happy go lucky girl that loved working, movies, my sister and puppies. There is no room is life for fucking up. I miss my mom. I would have never fucked up if she wasnt gone. My dad murdered her because she was on meth. I managed to recover, graduate college, buy a house, etc. but then I fucked up And made myself a social outcast. I just want to die bc I can’t have a redo. All I need is a redo! […]
What are alternatives to suicide??
It’s so hard to bring myself to kill myself. I know that I will never be the same again though. I will never get a bf, be happy, work again, or even clean house. I messed up and I can’t forgive myself. I can’t even get out of bed.
If I just knew I could live my life over again, I would be able to do it. I had such a good life with so many wonderful opportunities over the last 7 years. All I had to do was to take just one of those opportunities.
How do I get the courage to commit suicide?
If I went to live somewhere away from the world because I made myself so hideous, how will I pass the time? How can I make myself feel like I’m not missing out on something. Isn’t it better to be dead than to feel like you’re missing out on life every single day for like 50 years?
My life is over. I’ve become hideously unattractive because I had to take steroids that deformed my face. When I go in to public, I get weird stares. I quit my jobs and I can’t get out of bed. There is no way anyone will ever want to marry me because my skin has stretch marks all over it and my face is so ugly. I sort of want to go somewhere and live in seclusion for the rest of my life but I’m only 27. I had such a depressing decade. I’m so disappointed in myself for doing this. I can’t get out of […]