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No Hope

by Nansea 7/9/2009

written by Nansea

Hello out there in suicidal land. I have no hope for the future.

I’m tired of the pain of loneliness. For now, I’m chicken shit. I can’t do it, and I’m sure deep down inside I don’t want to do it. Yet, I keep fantasizing about hanging myself or charcoal combined with car exhaust seems to be the way to go. I need to end this pain.Â I’m 37. Maybe its time to go. Tell me what is the meaning of life again? See since I wrote that I know I don’t want to go. Suicide is attractive because the pain can end.

7/9/2009 3 comments

Black & Ugly or is it just a synonym?

by Nansea 5/30/2009

written by Nansea

I can’t believe it, or is it surprising to know that I’m one if not onlyÂ Black/African American women that wants end her life.Â I searched every post for the wordsÂ black and african and no one has declared to represent themselves as such. If there is any poc out there.. How do you get thru everyday? knowing most people think you are ugly? I’m losing theÂ will to want to breathe.

5/30/2009 11 comments

I actually thought life was supposed to be fair

by Nansea 5/30/2009

written by Nansea

This is a vent or rant. I believed life would be fair. I watched tv and it rotted my brain.

I thought one day I would meet a special guy. I met one that I thought was special 9 years ago.Â He really made me forget about the guy I had a crush on for few years. This man was my first boyfriend at 28 years old. You can believe I thought I would have met a guy that actually was attracted to me before then, but that did not happen. Now I question what if any feelings the guy I met back then had for […]

5/30/2009 0 comment