IÂ stopped taking my medication a week ago. for some strange reason I like the feeling of emptiness. I don’t have to leave my dorm room, or deal with the outside world when I don’t feel the need to, and that’s comforting to me. I don’t have to talk to people, answer my phone, or my door. I stay locked away in the darkness staring at this computer screen, drinking heavily, or turning to drugs.
its exam week and i have not studied for anything. i have not been to a full day of classes in weeks, I think about dropping out, but i know if […]
I’ve struggled with severe depression for 6 years now. I have been hospitalized twice for suicidal thoughts and close attempts. I have been a self harmer for 4 of these 6 years.  I’ve tried all the medications, I’ve tried all the therapy, I’ve tried everything. nothing significant happened in my life to make me feel this way, its just the way I am. chemical imbalance bullshit. my close family is aware of my depression, yet they don’t know that I struggle every single day just to wake up and get myself out of bed. They don’t know that I’m failing college and close to dropping out. I’ve lost my […]