You taught me love. You let me believe that I was special. You told me how I was the one. You let me fall for you. You knew you weren’t going to catch me. You showed me how it felt to be alive again. Â you lied to me countless times but I still came back for you. I watched you fall for my best friend. I haven’t stopped loving you. You’re my everything. I wish you would feel the same way
To much blood has flown from the wrists, of the children shamed for those they chose to kiss
Tonight is the night I will say my farewells. Tonight all the pain will be taken away. I will be no more, that’s what y’all wanted. There isn’t anything holding me back. This is it. Everything ends tonight, the pain and misery will all be gone
Is it possible that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel? Or am I just going to spiral more out of control? Could there possibly be a reason for me? Or am I just getting my hopes up to be crushed again? Maybe I am wanted here? But maybe I’m just background noise. I’m doing everything wrong, I don’t understand why I just can’t do anything right. One slip up and nobody will forget it. Maybe I should just get used to it?
No one cares enough to know when you aren’t okay. Nobody looks past the fake smile. No one looks you in your eyes and sees pain. I’m not that great of an actor, I can’t always be happy, but everyone always think I am. They don’t see the pain in my eyes or hear the hurt in my voice. I’m not okay, I never will be.
How many times have you used the excuse “I’m just tired?”
How many times have you cried yourself to sleep?
How many times have you told someone you’re fine but clearly you weren’t?
How many times have you smiled all though it wasn’t real?
Nobody cares when you sit there silent
Nobody cares when you’re on the verge of tears
Nobody cares if you’re okay or not
Nobody cares about what is wrong with you
Nobody cares that you have cuts on your wrists
Nobody cares about what’ve you’ve been through
Nobody cares about your life, only their own
Tears are words that need to be written