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nobodysgirl

I feel like every now and then I am slipping into their reality and I have to catch myself because their world is not true. Ai1

go to hell

by nobodysgirl 4/9/2014

written by nobodysgirl

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/Georgia_Mass_Choir_-_The_Best_of_My_Story.mp3

where can I go where there is nowhere to go to who can I talk to who isn’t already playing what can I do when they have everything laid out and planned for me already wtf can i get my shock now can I get my whatever the hell they gone give me now I don’t care anymore commit me, kill me, anything is better than submitting. I don’t believe andi don’t have to I lost enough of my soul and I don’t care who don’t believe me: who I am, what I am supposed to be idont care who believes me or not […]

4/9/2014 6 comments

what do you think it is?

by nobodysgirl 4/9/2014

written by nobodysgirl

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/J-MOSS-AFRAID.mp3

Do I have to?
I feel like I have to lose my soul
To make someone else whole
Because my life is not worth to live
Who will claim me?
Never
Who claims me?
The devil has touched my soul
Taken my soul
And unless I submit
I shall never be healed again
Born from a rape
Created in a laboratory
Who is enabled to tell me the truth
God knows
God sees all
Why won’t people help me?
I don’t understand
A sacrifice thru a ritual
All their souls bound to hell
God help us all
Psalms 41 to tell

4/9/2014 0 comment

Renegade

by nobodysgirl 4/8/2014

written by nobodysgirl

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/3_Doors_Down_-_Kryptonite.mp3

I’m a defector

proud to say

no matter what they try

I will get away

The calling for the spirit guide

is beneath what I need

Faith amidst my poverty

I can’t help but succeed

It’s a crown

fit for a king

nevertheless the darkness haunts and seeks me

They shall not prevail

neither shall they reign

For the cry from the humble man

out tested their fame

shame nevertheless encompass and shadows me

I pray that my God that I serve will hopefully forgive me

I am not what they say

nor what they think

4/8/2014 6 comments

Solitary Mediation

by nobodysgirl 4/8/2014

written by nobodysgirl

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/Hinder_-_Lips_Of_An_Angel.mp3

All my life

I have seemed to fail

Satan says I am destined to hell

little do he know less what he think

out of all of his accomplishments, reigns, and victories

still I hold to God for it is to Him I cling

Resonating sounds of the angel sing

I love the song, mountain, and hill

although he comes to steal, destroy, and kill

Defective equipment is all I have

Knock it down a little once more

Forsake me not Lord

For I am not a whore

scarred, pain staken and stricken

I hide my eyes

because I’m tired of them seeing somethin’

pain, love, jealous, and shame

happy, mad, sick, and leave

Not at the end

It can’t be right now

I’m […]

4/8/2014 0 comment

I Was Sacrificed

by nobodysgirl 4/8/2014

written by nobodysgirl

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/Evanescence_-_Sweet_Sacrifice.mp3

I’m am beginning to feel better now that I am here. I feel like I have made some friends even tho I know the connections may or may not be real. I hope to heal one day. I remember when I used to pray. I used to pray everyday but now I can’t seem to do nothing ubt think about praying. I remember the times when I was publicly humiliated in church. I had always wanted to go now I see why so many people didn’t/don’t go.Â I know its always gonna be why me.Â I know I am always gonna feel why me.

4/8/2014 4 comments

Bound and Treasured

by nobodysgirl 4/7/2014

written by nobodysgirl

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/Let-Her-Go-Jasmine-Thompson-Music-Download-Paradise-Pro.mp3
I ain’t gonna make I have no friends
I am becoming my own worst enemy once again
Why doesn’t anybody care?
Why won’t nobody help me?
All of this for a stupid prophecy!?
All of my life I have pretended not to know
Everything good thing I had have now become owed
I’m trying to cry, trapped with pain
My god is the only reason I am still the same
I’m sick, no help no doctor a queue
I’m lonely, no friends, no one real in my life to talk too
The things they have done and what I have had to do […]

4/7/2014 3 comments