My sister died couple of years back because of a road accident..I still miss her..sometimes it hits me so hard she is not here that i can’t breathe..my relationship with my parents changed after that..they keep on talking that she was very good and i am so lacking in everything that she had..i feel depressed half the time..i dont even feel like talking to my friends anymore..everything feels useless..i cant even kill myself ..i love my parents..maybe they are disappointed with me..but i love them..if i kill myself i dont know how bad they will take it..I feel trapped..