You told me to give you my trust and that you’d help..You told me expressing expressing myself and talking about this summer would help..you said you wouldn’t tell.Ive spent the past two months pouring myself out and honestly all you’ve done is tear me apart..You told my parents everything..You told them I was crazy..They’ve tooken about everything..I swear Lindsey’s the only thing keeping me going right now…you take the credit for saving my life but she’s the one who was there for me when things were crashing!You are just another example of why I don’t trust your just like the rest….You burnt those letters I […]
Spent all of last week in the hospital ..it didn’t work..One moment I feel so good and then the next I feel like everything’s crashing down I hate it..I fucking hate it here you can’t trust anyone.I wanna die like I deserve.Ive cried out to only get ignored.I feel so alone.I want it over.I want an easy fast way out..
Love is what’s killing me…Love is nothing now…nobody cares..I’m done I give up…I gave her all of me…it’s all over..fuck this pointless life..I want out no one gets me..ill give myself 5 days no more.
I faced my biggest fear today…I thought it might of helped but it only made things so much worse and harder…but I guess I just had to..I don’t wanna be put through all this anymore I just give up…I want out
I just don’t get what I’ve done..Maybe it’s cause I’m too needy.Maybe it’s cause I push everyone away when they are to close.Today I just looked at myself in the mirror and yelled.I let so many things I cared for leave me..they left me.But what did I do wrong?It was never like this since this summer it feels like I had everything ripped away from me.Im so alone in this world .Im still waiting for someone just to understand or possibly relate with what I’m going through and why everyone’s leaving me.Ive never felt my death wanting to happen so soon..
I thought things were finally looking up and getting better..But it’s now just only getting worse.Theres a new girl she’s picked every broken piece of me and tried to put me back together..she won’t give up on me.My feelings for her are strong but I just feel like its just another break waiting to happen..Ive tried warning a couple of people that I was going to end myself..I tried to express myself but all I get are simple “whatever’s”..Ive always been a caring person and helped others but I guess when it’s your own time of need no cares like you did.I guess that’s life […]
Just a couple days was all it took to know I loved you.I still admit you were the best thing that’s ever walked in my life.When we met you were so happy.Then you talked about killing yourself and that made me feel terrible I wanted you to stay I wanted to be one of the reasons you’d stay but you said i wasn’t enough..but still you stayed we broke up..I never thought it would Be this hard.Seeing you move on hurts so much.Iv tried to get out there open up ask for help..meet new people.But none of them are you.I love you.My first love.And every […]
When I was little I thought my life would be something more than this.I know for a fact if my child self could of viewd how I am now it would be dissapointed and it wouldn’t look forward to anything in the future.When I was little you could say I had it all my parents had me at 18.I loved my child hood despite my parents my mom and dad would always fight and my dad would beat my mom and I could do nothing about it cause I was so little.I got older and I grew to hate my dad.He started to hit me.He […]