I’m back in the same position, once again.
I thought I was finally happy. I thought that HE made me happy. But it turns out he’s just the same. Using me for the same shit all the rest did.
I promised myself that I wouldn’t like him until I knew he felt the same but once again I fucked up and gave him almost everything he wanted. I’m so stupid. I fucking hate myself. I just want to leave and go away forever. I want to be someplace new where nobody even knows my goddamn name. Or maybe I could just leave for […]
The two things that have kept me pushing threw life are my dogs. Sad isnt it? Scotty and Sky .
Ive had sky for 7 years. Ive had scotty for 3. They where best friends. We where best friends. I cried with them, loved them, played with them. I always turned to them when things got bad. They loved me.
Well Guess what happened on Friday the 6th ? My poor little girl Sky got hit by a car. Shes gone. I dont know what to do or how to feel. Ive never lost anybody close to me before and i gotta tell you, it really hurts. […]
I’m tired of being alone, laughed at, made fun of , name called, and taken as a joke. I hate my life so much. I shed a tear at least once every day. Probably more…
I’m sorry I couldnt be perfect. I’m sorry I could be pretty or skinny like Daisy and Danielle. I’m sorry Im ugly , fat and  pathetic.
I never get to be happy. There hasn’t been one time since I was 11 when I was fully and truly happy. Bad shit always happens to me and not the fucked up people who really deserve it. I’m always there for everybody. But when […]