I was told it was going to get better. But, it is considered better if it still lasted 5 years. Where ever I go, I visualize different ways to kill myself with the objects around me. I tried to use my “imagination of my death” in my horror stories of torture. Its gets me to wonder if I really want to torture myself to death because of my self hatred or fall asleep to my death. This goes through my head everyday.
Don’t leave me
Don’t leave me
I can’t handle myself without you
Without you
These tears won’t fill my emptiness
I have this ache inside my chest.
Although we want to live and die.
Can we save this without goodbye.
Don’t leave me
Don’t leave me
I can’t stand to live without you
Without you
My lies have become my reality,
Is there such thing of you and me?
I can’t forget smiles and tears,
That help me through my biggest fears.
So please don’t leave me
Don’t leave me.
Cause I can’t even stand to try,
If we’re going to say goodbye.
Goodbye
This is goodbye
cause I […]
I want to die, tonight. But, I’m afraid that someone close would find me. I want to raid my family’s medicine cabinet and drift away in my sleep. But, I’m afraid of the person that would try to wake me up. The sad part is, that no one fully gets that something is wrong with me until it’s something turns into a disaster. But, they will be afraid that it was already too late.
I try to scream out for help. But how can they help me from my own thoughts. So they drift away from me like I’m a freak.
She felt alone inside her mind. It was her darkness that consumed her, she never had the switch to turn on the light. It’s that kind of gleam, that is seen in the eyes of the happy. She craved for it, ever since was 11 when she realize everything is a mess. Happiness has been her birthday wish every year. On her 16 birthday, she didn’t wish for a car, it was to be happy like before. Her friends never knew that she was depressed and suicidal. It was like she was in her own play. She does her hair, makeup and costume to act […]