I know that’s wrong but I can’t do this. I can’t sit here alone all day and stay alive.
Out the door 10.30.
I will stick to what they planned.
Typing that is a bit of a relief.
Peace
Just a statement I guess. Putting all my stuff in zip locks. Don’t want to have to have people doing that. What would you do with your diaries? A lot of what is in them has potential to cause my family pain. Would you burn them?
I have been planning to go away permanently for sometime now. I had a practise run and everything is set up.
The way it was determined will not make much sense to anyone. What am I even asking? I don’t know.
They sent me to hospital last Monday. I had not been sleeping I was hearing a lot of commands seeing things in my room. But all this has happened before. I admitted to having attempted to end my life but I have bipolar and bpd and I think that they just see all that as symptoms of my shit.
So the next two days […]