Not much time left

I have been planning to go away permanently for sometime now. I had a practise run and everything is set up.
The way it was determined will not make much sense to anyone. What am I even asking? I don’t know.
They sent me to hospital last Monday. I had not been sleeping I was hearing a lot of commands seeing things in my room. But all this has happened before. I admitted to having attempted to end my life but I have bipolar and bpd and I think that they just see all that as symptoms of my shit.
So the next two days I went to see a psychiatrist who Told me about the three brains and I felt guilty for taking up his time as all I could think of was how to end it. I am under a care team to keep me out of hospital and they are lovely and they said they would call me for the next few days.
It is however ridiculous as they know I can’t talk on the phone. So I cancelled my appointments that I had for Thursday. I deleted my facebook account . I have not seen anybody for about three weeks.
It is inevitable the outcome but now I am left with the dilemma of my effects. The stove is still working I thought perhaps the best thing is to burn my belongings. I don’t want my family to have to deal with my stuff. I didn’t make a will because I don’t own anything. Also I don’t want to die inhibited as I would wish not to be drunk for those final moments although I will admit I am scared. I’ve not cried or shown any real emotion through any of it although I know I am depressed. I guess I’m just wondering if anyone is out there, because I feel very alone. Thanks for reading