for years i was always with my bff we had a great time…until i starting making new friends. she didnt like that, wanted me 2 get rid of them. it was bullshit then in2005 age 13 i was diagnosed with seizures she was with me when the 1st one happened.i fell down 2 flights of stairs and split my head open..after i got outta the hospital i called to tell her i was ok and she said”hey, i gotta go” she never said a word to me after that. thats wat had sparked it all..
last nite i couldn’t sleep,things about my past just got into my head and i couldn’t get em out.
when i was young i was raped. it took about 6 years just for the courts to deside how long he should b put away. in a fuked up way im glad i went to the police if it wasn’t for me then a lot of women would’ve kept the fact that he raped them as well hidden. at the end they came to me and said that they were envious of me and they never could’ve stepped forward if it wasn’t for me.
but the memory of […]
i’ve never told ppl these things not even in blogs so this is so weird but i feel like i might explode if i keep it in any longer.
it all started in 8th grade when i was 13…thats when everything hit me at once. between family issues and isolation from friends my past came and bit me in the soul. i changed. it started as carving things in my arm, but then i carved deeper each time. i liked it. i enjoyed the pain, for some reason it would relax me…..for a short time anyways.
since i was 13 i always wanted my life to endbut […]