I don’t have the intention of offending anyone and I am not certain what behooved me to think of this, but the more minutes pass the more legitimate it seems…what if I pretended to be so unstable I was granted the permission for a lobotomy procedure? Do you think this would be a possible alternative to suicide for you if family or friends did not have to take care of you? Could I successfully fake it? Would I or you be unreceptive enough to not care how we were treated or if we were alive or not? Or what if I pretended to have severe […]
Oh and while I am still on here I suffer from an OCD as well.  Although, it has been very mild  lately which is a scary and frustrating thought. I have not seen a doctor so strictly speaking I am not OCD, but it seems to be the only logical explanation or I am just really off the wall.
I did not think I was going to make it this far. I did not expect today to be a special day much less a great one, but I certaintly was not prepared for this mess.
I have not been diagnosed  but I know I have an eating disorder and my parents know now.  For the last month or so my mom and stepfather who are split apart) have been watching me practically 24/7 every since they were forced to realize my depression. My school counselor found out about some stuff and pestered my parents until they got me a therapist. I have yet to endure […]
Uh, I am so discusted with myself! I just starved myself for two weeks and as soon as I got home from school today I binged on everything in sight. I know limiting your diet is bad, but I do not know…I just feel completely out of control if I don’t. And to make things worse I cut myself again right after. Then my mom got home and started to yell at me all over again. This morning she was mad at me too and told me to “go ahead and do it just make sure it is done right… so you don’t end up […]