Somebody wrote to me “your great” today. I literally cried.
I remember the first time I thought of that.. The first time I put it in writing, you read it and cared. You asked me what was wrong. I lied and said it was just the title of something I was going to write. I’m making it true now. We haven’t even been friends for so long. Never in my life had I ever trusted anyone as much as I trusted you. You helped me get rid of my fears. You made me feel safe and happy which I hadn’t been in years. Then we went our separate ways. I was no longer your best […]
I found this website yesterday and registered for it. This is my second post. When I wrote my first post yesterday, I couldn’t stop crying. Actually I’ve been secretly crying for a whole week. That’s me… I hide myself behind a fake smile and behind my fake laughs. If you asked anyone from when I was in high school, they would say I was that girl that would always have a smile on, who was nice to everyone and ALWAYS seemed to be happy. If you ask anyone from college or work they would say the same thing. But that’s not really me. Of course, […]
The last words he ever said, were said to me;Â his little princess, I had been.
I know it has been years but all the pain is still here
and all I bottled up keeps flowing out in never-ending tears.
I’ve used a blade and I’ve used pills but I’m filled with all this fear.
So I keep on breathing, dead and alive at the same time.
All I want is to make it stop, not my life but the feelings
Erase the scars and form real smiles
Because I really do want to stay here for a while.