early in the morning
as the sun rises
you’re wide awake
no surprises
honestly, she never sleeps
she’s up til dawn
fussing about her weight
she’s pinching her tummy
she’s making herself sick
it’s honestly cruel
what children permit
-e.m.
burning sensations
of cigarette buds
the emptiness
of loving no one
it’s not that she was cruel
it was just hard to go
through.
after being broken
just like a pair of shoes
-e.m.
i met a girl
and she told me
that she thought
she did not deserve a name
so
what i did
was rename her beautiful
now that’s what she cuts
into her own skin
-e.m.
i or she
opened a box
from my or her daddy’s
closet
and pulled out a gun
she or i
coiled her hand or mine
over the cold metal
and tiptoed back to one of our rooms
i or she
wrapped the gun
in a pillow case
and a couple more
for good luck
she or i
put the gun to our heads
because i or she
did not like that i
was no longer me
i am not me
and she is […]
i never really liked
the thought of life
if you try to exit it yourself
you get called “emo”
or your parents wonder..
what went wrong
but i am not depressed
i simply don’t see the point
if we all die anyway
-e.m.
i don’t know what to think
when you said
‘don’t blink,
i’ll just be gone a minute’
you didn’t come back
you killed your own self
so you didn’t have to
wake up in the morning
-e.m.
she had big doe eyes
the colour of emeralds
her lips like blood
quivering and shaking
darling as she may
she never wanted to see the day
where she woke up
after she tried to end it all
-e.m.
at twilight
you came to me
with glistening cheecks
& red eyes
gasping
trying not to cry
you hid new scars
under long hair
as you tilted your head down
because you don’t want
them to see you
you’re crying too hard
i think you don’t realize
how much i love you
you’re a train wreck, miss
but you try so hard
to fix your messed up life
but i want you to know
that it’s not your fault
you didn’t do this to yourself
sweetheart;
at twilight you came to me
with thin hair
& an empty stomach
ribs sticking over
and a spine sinking low
-e.m.
burning sensations
from cigarette buds
endorphins empired
from beautiful skin
breaking and burning
emptying within
but,
she’s fading quickly
and losing control
she doesn’t have anymore to know
-e.m.
you left your life
like a giant “;”
you left me
your last words being
“just remember-
when someone breaks your
heart
it’s because they don’t want
you to break theirs
you’re beautiful and..”
that was how you left it
and the next day
you were dead
you left your life
like a giant “;”
i think that’s how you’d want it
-e.m.
sinking under,
with no release
faster faster
it brings you peace
knowing oxygen would save you
and they don’t have that
under the sea
-e.m.
can you imagine                                                                                                          can you imagine
a boy so alone                                                                                                               a girl so alone
he only had his thoughts                                                                               nobody knew the real her
a boy so sad                                                                                                             a girl so broken
that he no longer thought there
was a point                                                                                                she made her scuffed up
to this thing                                                                                                                       party shoes
look like they had never
called life                                                                                                                          been worn
a boy so full of love                                                                                                    a girl so in love
that no one returned                                                                                                      with this boy
except for one                                                                                          that when people asked her
which he didn’t even realize                                                                                  “oh what’s wrong”
she told them
‘someone stole my heart’
-e.m.