Having a hard time dealing with the fact that everyone I get close to, seems to betray me… is it me? I don’t understand. I’m too a point where I feel walls have fell on top of me and I’m running out of oxygen. I feel as if I’m overly nice, maybe that attracts shit? If anyone has any insight please share. -_- *Ranting*
I personally am not Religious & I am currently writing a piece on my beliefs of the Religious system… which I will be posting in the following week or so. Curious to see the views of others, please share. 🙂
After spending a few hours on this site and reading a lot of others stories, I have decided to share mine. I have no idea where to start; it seems I have battled depression my entire lifetime. My first memories really are of being locked in my room, bruised and beaten… crying, wondering if all kids lived that type of life. My father was a very abusive man to not only me, but my mother. I would stand and protect my brother and sister and took beatings, upon beatings for them. I was molested by my dads best friend several times from the ages of […]
My heart is blackened,
From what I allow you to see.
But deep down inside,
I just want to be free.
My life has become a nightmare,
From which I can’t wake up
I don’t know how much I can take on,
I just want to give up.
The days are sad & long,
the nights lonely & so endless.
Stuck all by myself,
Truly the most self-hated & defenseless.
How easily it would be for me,
To take it to a premeditated distance.
Cutting off all life forces,
And cease to be in existence.
Then I see my children’s faces,
Crying trying to […]