I know there are a few people who would miss me for a time, but in all honesty I’m not really apart of any ones life enough to warrant prolonged grief, I can imagine what it would be like for a little while people would ask where I am and someone would say “he killed himself” and they’d say “that’s so horrible he seemed so nice” and then they would change topic because they realise that they didn’t really know me, so few seem to.
Not that long ago my friend’s girlfriend was going on about what good friends we were and how she had […]
Reeferfool
Reeferfool
About me, well I'm twenty, male, unemployed pretty much without out a cent to my name (that's a lie i actually have one whole dollar in my bank account). I can't remember the last time I really felt happy, even when I was very young I was unhappy, and I think of suicide constantly. I have a couple friends in fact I rely heavily on them and they don't know it but they've already stop me from killing myself once although I wish they hadn't, things have only gotten worse since then, I hate this parasitic leech that I've become being a so useless and a almost constant third wheel, I just need knife wide enough to make sure I get it right the first time, I hate knives but I can't kill myself and have someone find me that would be horrible experience for someone to go through, I just want go out into the middle of nowhere kill myself and be forgotten.
I’m quite young (only twenty) but I feel very alone, let me begin by saying that I have spent most of the last four years by myself going more than a month at a time without seeing or speaking to anyone that I knew just the checkout person at the supermarket asking how I am sometimes I would try to respond but could not find the words, I moved back into the city less than a year ago and things where a little better then when I lived in the country side but things changed quickly, these days when I see people I always feel […]