I sometimes suffer under depression because of some problems with my parents and because I was bullied in school. But now I met a boy online, who is really amazing and I really like him and I know that he likes me, too. The only problem is, he doesn’t know how I look like. I’m fat and ugly and ew. I am really scared that he won’t like me anymore if I tell him that, but this would break my heart. When I think about it I’m nearly crying.. What should I do.. ?
I really can’t take it anymore. I just can’t love my mother anymore and I feel horrible because of this. But every time I do feel some pity for her, it just gets worse. I just don’t know. I want to get away from here, away from my parents. Every time I see them I am nearly crying. I often thought about suicide, but I don’t really want to die, I am scared to die. Yet, I would do anything to get away from here, as far as possible.. Please, can’t anybody save me? Can’t anybody make me disappear?..