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The Secret

I was so beautiful

So happy and so kind

My family thought the world of me

But I had something to hide

I’d eat my meal

Bit by bit

I’d chew each piece

With my every whit

Then I’d open the door

Knell on the ground

Lift up the seat

And make my daily rounds

Vomit smell fills the air

Sink water falls

Choking sounds are made

But left unheard in the hall

I sigh with realive

I take a good stare

Make sure it’s all out

Then fix my hair

I’m getting thinner my the minuet

Getting thin and white

I need to keep it a secret

No one knows my fight

I cry when I’m alone

Smile when I’m not

Trying to make the mirror happy

I think I’ve got […]

The dream

My eyes open

Blood everywhere

A rusty razor

All I can do is stare

Where am I?

I see a sink

A bathroom?

I blinked

My eyes on the mirror

Cuts everywhere

Blood smeared

In my hair

The door opens

My aunt screams

“What have you done???”

She grabs me

We go to the ER

My aunt tels the doctors, I show

They ask me what happened

I reply “I don’t know.”

I set stiches

They bandage a few

I gto home and to bed

And as if on que………

I wake up screaming

What happened to me? I look around

It was only a dream

This is one of my many nightterrors I experience every night.

Cutters Lullaby

Go to sleep and close your eyes

And dream of broken butterflies

That tore their wings against a thorn

You know the pain that they’ve endured

Silver metal shine so bright

Scarlet blood that feels so right

Dream of that blood trickling down

And wake up just before you drown

The moonlight shining off your tears

As you bleed out your worst fears

So tonight when you start to cry

Whisper the cutters lullaby:

Hushabye baby, your almost dead

You don’t have a pulse and your pillows red

Your family hates you, yout friends let you bleed

Sleep tight with a knife, cause thats all you need

Rockabye baby, broken and scarred

You didn’t know life would be this hard

Time to […]