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I came here seeking the weary. I am pretty tired myself.

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I think the hardest problem I’m facing right now is the fact that life got better, I was doing ok, and now, back to this feeling of incredible nothingness, the void that stays in my heart even when things seem to be all right.

NO one wants me in their life, really.  I started talking to my mom again, found out she and my dad were getting a divorce, and all of it is good because for years they have stayed together and it was making them miserable.  I reconnected with them, and I got a room mate to help me with the bills.  I got […]

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Reaching Out

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Why do we reach out to those that have harmed us?

Is it somehow an innate desire inside that they will change and see the error of their ways and realize that after years of degrading us, we’re actua lly worth something?

Dad used to scold me for my self-worth being low, but he kept contributing to it by making fun of my weight, or my bleeding issues.  How could a Registered Nurse be so cruel, knowing, as a biology major, that the health issues I have are pretty severe?

The truth is, they weren’t severe because he didn’t want to foot the doctor bill.  Years later, they’re […]

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The New God

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I see you, everyday, watching this new God of yours and living how you feel this entity wants you to be.  The media poisons young minds, and you begin to live like the Kardashians, that alien race made up of evolved Beliebers.  This unique following consists of all races and economies, countries worldwide, a hidden invasion that is slowly snaking its way into the homes of every free thinking individual.  When this form of entertainment gets boring, you switch to the mobile form of worship, hooking in to the interwebs.  These Youtubers and Tweeters have their own cult following, which echoes the evening television crowd, […]

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Tick Tock

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Time gets closer everyday to the point where I will be out of money.  Today was the last day to appeal my unemployment denial, which my boss refused stating I quit to go to school, which is a lie.  I didn’t appeal.  I cannot stand the idea of talking to her.  I keep having nightmares, I keep having trouble sleeping, then when I do, I just feel tired anyway.  I’ve lied on my resume, to get rid of the blackballing boss bully that has been telling lies about me, but at the same time, it gets rid of about five years of management experience that […]

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What is Love?

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When I was younger, I was molested and beaten almost daily by my older sister who I idolized and looked up to. My parents would blame me for her violent episodes, saying that I provoked her. Whenever I would fight back, I’d be punished, by spankings with a belt, or they would take away things that were important to me.
Later on, my sister told my parents that I was the one who instigated the molestation. It was a very, very shameful night, me, sitting at the table with my family, my sister crying crocodile tears of guilt at 15 years of […]

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