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Samantha

Hi my name is Samantha but you can just call me Sammie if you want. See i've grown up in a hard home I guess you can say, and you can also say that I am not the most confident girl even though i'm never called ugly .. Iv'e cut before, still have the scars, drank a lot, and popped pills. I have only attempted suicide once in my life and it was less than a month ago. I am now going to counslers a lot, caseworkers, and doctors. They never trust me anymore even though they should trust me more than before I did all of this. I now understand no one needs to go this way even if they think it is the only way out. because it is not. I have been right where you have been, feeling worthless and lonley. But there is someone out there who loves you and God loves you too! i love you. even if you dont know me i care. i realized who i needed to let go in my life and who to keep. i have amazing friends i know and i will never try to leave them again becuase i know how they would feel if i died. because i have went through all of this with a friend before. i love you ingrid.<3

Zach. </3

by Samantha 12/2/2012

written by Samantha

While I am reminiscing on the memories that slowly but sweetly tortures my heart.

With all the thoughts running through my head.

Was there something that could be changed?

And somehow make all the pain that was created to go away

I donâ€™t want you back

I want the happiness you brought to my heart

And knew someone cared

But I guess im not well enough or someone you would love to always be there

Now the days are surely getting harder

And im longing for your thoughts

The way you used to hold me

Did you think that I forgot?

I may not be what you want

But im someone that is begging on my knees

Somehow I […]

12/2/2012 4 comments

things that make you want to change

by Samantha 10/16/2012

written by Samantha

I just want to be held. is that to much to ask? i try to hold everything in but somehow i can never move on from my past. the aching i feel through my body and the tears that are stained on my face are like tatoos that can never be erased. i try to smile and say i will be okay but why do i lie i guess im trying to hide from my mistakes. the blood that comes down my leg. hoping that doing this will make my pain go away. but only for awhile. when am i going to change?

10/16/2012 0 comment

tired

by Samantha 10/15/2012

written by Samantha

the hurt thats inside me
i cant seem to forget
i try to find the key
but all i feel is regret
like why i do this
and why i run away
how can i get out of this aybss
and know what to say.
do i even mean what i let out
or want people to hear
i guess i just want to feel like my sainty is near
im living my story
and its getting harder everyday
nothing is now boring
im only now afraid
i dont know who to go to
i only want to cry
all i am trying to ask […]

10/15/2012 1 comment