so i tried killing myself for the fifth time yesterday…but did it work? no. it never does. i guess in a way im glad it didnt work…i dont like to hurt people(on the off chance that it would hurt someone). but i cant help but wish that it did work. i dont know, maybe i should just stop trying….i just am afraid to live.
i used to be the girl that didnt care what people thought. i was me, and that was okay. but now i find myself getting stuck on every flaw(no matter how big or small). i hate that i will never be good enough for my family or anyone else. i dont even like myself anymore. i try and try to fix myself, to make myself more likeable…but nothing works. im still the same akward and pathetic girl i have always been. i cant even tell anyone(aside from people on sites like this) how i feel because im terrified of being judged. i just dont know […]