most of the time i think about dying.. but occasionally i do have those moments where i don’t want to die.. i want to live.. that life really is short and i want to have amazing experiences in my life.. i want to be happy.. i want to feel normal.. i dont want my life to end by killing myself.. i want to know what it’s like to feel inspired, motivated.. and not be consumed with suicidal thoughts, depression, and constantly telling myself im not good enough.. im trying to hold on to what i really want.. but i just dont know how im ever […]
i cant even count the number of times ive tidied up my room and prepared to hang myself from the fan. everytime i sware that this is it.. ive gotten as far as just having to kick the stool away from me.. but i just cant do it.. i want to so badly.. i want to die.. i do.. i dont want to be me anymore.. i keep thinking of everone who’s ever taken that leap.. what their last thoughts were.. maybe next time..