when you find someone/something that makes you happy and you lose it its worst dying …my deepest fear came true..my life just know how to get messed up
im high off pain medz….but still in pain
i think i told one too many pains medz but im still in pain …….i keep black out now gonna try and sleep off the pain bye loves
I feel to cry because i caused my life to be shit …If i die my family would stop being poor so maybe i should……….. just a faillure my new name 🙂 (Y) I love my mother way to make me feel better to tell me how much of a failure and a user ive been and how poor i am making them …..yet im trying to stay positive
Being a science major in high school …..its hard….i cut but i know im anaemic ……i dont eat even i know i may get an ulcer …i pass out at nights because i am so weak yet still i do this every day …
Enough of my confusion….the next poem name is Words.
Scars around your body
Blood flowing from your heart
to your vein through your skin
Splint in two by the red ***
Bruises internally . each word they said
scars your soul to hate this day
Words of regret, Words of mistakes
Words to make you not want to see another day
Knife to your heart, Blade to your soul
The last breath […]
Hearts beats together as one
Brown eyes stare
Hand shivers at your embrane
Knees weaken
What, Why is this happen
Tears falls
A silent mumble
Falls slowly to the ground
Will you be there to lift me back up
No no you wont
These emotions, these feelings
Of solitude , of loneliness has overcome me
No clue nor understanding
What do you want of me
I am dead , cold ice cold
These emotions have caused murder
I died in solitude and alone
Hand-written 🙂
Gonna post some poems would love some feedback on them when they go up 🙂
Well have not been on in a long while now …been going through alot of problems , just back to say hey and to check up on people
Sorry have not been on……….started to help people on twitter been very busy
I am still here though no worries
my ex girlfriend’s boyfriend want to have sex with me because she cheated on him with me…….HUH?
i moved on 4 months ago so why now…something always kills my happiness
not this time…….POSITIVE thats their problem not mine
STRENGTH…..haha not there!!!!
Who am I fooling?
This week has been messed up. No exams for most of it been at school to forget the stress at home. Playing with my friend and we just started kissing….and intense. AM I THAT MESSED UP? Now we are together but i know it will not last…..she will abandon me like everyone else. She makes me smile (havent done that in months) but two girls together in a catholic school….I HAVE GONE MAD it cant work!!!!!!!!!!
What did i do?
I was friendly and being myself for you and in the end you hurt me, made me so angry that i am crying.Your a friend arent you suppose to support me ? Not tear me down to ruins or make me question our friendship. What did i do to deserve this pain. Havent i been through enough you know my story but stills you hurt me…..oh sigh i trusted you i told you everything and you are just like the rest i thought you were different….my mistake.
Why did i trust you? :'(
I am the girl who is always seen when doing nothing.I am the girl who all the rumours are about.
I am the girl who never smiles, laughs but always friendly.
I am the girl who will help the world but can’t help herself.
I am the girl who can see the beauty in every one but herself.
Who I am should not be the question but who I want to be.
The answer is happy with me and able to help me.
Not to be self-centered do not get me wrong, just able to self-love.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That’s why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to sheild me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it’s followed by acceptance,
if it’s followed by love.
It’s the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It’s the only thing that will assure me
of what I can’t assure myself,
that I’m really worth something.
I don’t like to hide.
I don’t like to play superfical phony games.
I […]
Don’t be fool by me.
Don’t be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I’m afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that’s second nature to me,
but don’t be fooled.
For God’s sake don’t be fooled.
I give you the impression that I’m secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my gane,
that the water’s calm and I’m in command,
and that I need no one.
But don’t believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface
is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don’t want anybody to […]
For the first in four years, my parents smiled at me but I dont know how to take it. Because they could be happy that they can soon kick me out of the house or they just could be happy with me. I think it the first one stills because after they disown me they would never happy with me again but i have to live them stills so i am blamed for everything. But college is a year away maybe i’ll be happier then.
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