…it’s been a while…after a good 4 months of no reply from my girlfriend I’ve given up. I’m done with her bullshit. I promised her not to hurt myself. it’s been a great 7 months darling but now it’s over. I mean nothing to anyone, and that’s good. because if I meant a thing to just one person, I’d have to keep promises. but now I don’t have to anymore. Im so done keeping people happy, lying about being “fine just tired”…Im just sick of it all. I hate how everyone thinks it’s perfectly fine to go through my sketchbook without asking and it’s not. […]
after a few weeks of leaving, i got my life back on track. i got help, met amazing friends, and discovered a wonderful thing that changed my life. then hurricane sandy. my friend was left in a cramme dapartment. that was fixed though when she moved in with her cousin, my friends boyfriend, and a good friend to me. we were fine. then she got mad. she locked us out of our shared cosplay account, and our personel accounts. she told lies to another one of my friends, who i always spoke of them to her. a week or so later we resolved and were […]
Enemy, familiar friend
My beginning and my end
Broken truth, whispering lies
And it hurts again
What I fear and what I try
Words I say and what I hide
All the pain, I want it to end
But I want it again
And it finds me
The fight inside is coarsing through my veins
And it’s raging
The fight inside is breaking me again
It’s still the same, pursuing pain
Isn’t worth the lie I’ve gained
We both know how it will end
But I do it again
And it finds me
The fight inside is coarsing through my veins
And it’s raging
The fight inside is […]
Ive decided to close my account. This site hasent helped me, im sorry. Ill miss the niceness and vents, ill miss being able to talk to someone…i hope i can come back some day to vent again.
Bye sp, i may just miss you this much
Listing…
Bulimia
Self harm
Pills
Friends before family
Addiction
Suicide…
suicide.
…suicide?
suicIde!
SUICIDE!!
-clears throat-
Spacing out
Screamo
Obsessive
Horrible grades
With the wrong people
Needs therapy
Schizophrenic
Cant concentrate
At all…
Dosent value life
Dosent enjoy life
Dosent take life seriously
Thinks life sucks
Ruined life
Suicide.
Nobodys going to be home tonight
When the silence gets too loud
When the dim light from the window
Becomes my only friend
Im feeling a little suicidal
Would you care to join me?
Ill bring the pills
You bring the gun
Itll be fun
Trust me
Till i:
Hang out with him all day
Be truly happy
Enjoy myself
Kill myself <3
Bye~
In the dark with the music on
Wishing I was somewhere else
Taking all your anger out on me
Somebody help
I would rather rot alone
Then spend a minute with you
I’m gone, I’m gone
And you can’t stop me from falling apart
‘Cause my self-destruction is all your fault
How could you, how could you, how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?
Open wounds
Downstairs the enemy sleeps
Leaving the TV on
Watching all the dreams
We had turn into […]
I tried so hard, and i get repayed in fights. Okay. Your so rational. Ive been trying the butterfly project….not woking very welll….im finally done fighting with matt, he gave up…im quite ready for my death, i find it pleasant…ive been pasting a smile on my face and sometimes find it real, shocking right? Well my phone just gave me a heart attack so im gonna go….thats all~
I plan to kill myself. Say what you please, everything will just strengthen my point.
GAHH!! I LEAVE MY ACCOUNT BECAUSE MY DSI FUCKING BROKE AND I GET FALSE REPORTED 5 TIMES!!! i cant tryst anyone…ANYONE. im gonna go cry and throw another tantrum cause im a little baby like that…i worked so hard to get so far and some little ***** wants to come along and report my flip because of some fucking blood. Ooh so scary…would this even fit on thiswebsite? Oh whatever if you dont think it does idgaf. Its put under rants. I think this is a rant.
Im going to vent with this attatched. So i have been fighting with my ex, and hes really starting to get under my skin. I tried suffocating myself wensday night…and that dident work *obviously*…im sorry for any and all misspells in this my screen isent very well calibrated ;-; bye~
Anyone know how to post pics from the ipod?!
As some of you may know, my birthday was on thursday, obviously my suicide attempt failed. Now im officialy 13…not that that matters or anything its just…i dont think anyone will take me seriously aboukt any of my posts…well its been a month and school starts soon, so that means: parents are going to check my history, look through my pictures, and probably go in my dream box…and im tinking about taking my cousins ‘special’ pain killers…
i wish you werent all adults…we need sp teen i feel so unwanted…okay bye
If i had the courage to just do it…i would….im dreaming about it, i space out and slowly wrap my hands around my neck and squeeze, my brother stops me half the time…i dont want help…i want a shoulder to cry on and courage to detach my soul from this Hell…
last night i was sitting in bed drawing for my friend and my demons kept calling me fat and shit (which i am) and then the thought of bulemia sufaced….i honestly dont know any more…i plan to kill myself on the 23d…my birthday…i cant wait, what a joy it would be to commit suicide on my
Own
Birthday. Just fun 😉
It’s our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We’ve fallen in love
We’ve fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
Do you want […]
i need to just kill myself already…yeah yeah: oh my god you so young you shouldent be here blah blah blah!! Whatever. i dont give a single shit. I dont belong here…ive know that since 5th…anyone got any depressing song suggestions i kinda wanna branch out in my music taste…
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