Dident work…finally gathered thoughts. Hello cruel world

what we all need is a partner(girl or guy) to love us for who we are. lol I’m a virgin at 18. african american really tall but no muscle and a little fat. I’m in college and its still hard for me to find a girl i want to actually have sex with. I’m a hypocrit actually now that i think of it. I’m not willing to have sex with a woman I’m not attracted to but then again I’m not attractive enough to have sex with an attractive girl. It’ll take my years to get in the shape that i want to be but even then maybe the few girls that call me cute are just lying to me. i just don’t know what to feel anymore. i feel sexual urges that i can’t control anymore. I don’t know what your problem is but if you have someone that you can share sexual actions with i suggest you talk to him/her. i know it would help me