I think I have been suicidal since…well, my entire life. I’m only 26 but that thought has been with me for as long as I can remember. In my childhood/teens, I didn’t articulate it as ” i want to die”, rather, I daydreamed about dying, being kidnapped by aliens–I just wanted to be gone, forever. When people would ask me “what do you want to do when you’re old?” I had nothing to answer-not because I lacked ambition or imagination, rather, it was because I never believed I would get old. I didn’t think I would actually live.
Then, one day, it came to me as […]