if i’m not the love of your life
then i’ll be your greatest loss
sleepless nights
3:00 am feels so damn empty
i wonder how she feels
while you fill her silence
the way you did for me
that girl in england
what did i do wrong
that she’s doing so right
I never loved anyone the way I loved you
I wish you’d come back
I deserve to die
Useless
I can’t tell if my life is falling apart, or if it’s falling into place.
I know I’m not alone. There are many people in my life who love me and I hold them dear to me. They always make it clear that they are here for me, but why do I not feel it? Why do I still feel so lonely at times. Laying in my bed staring at the ceiling. 11:59 p.m. on a school night. Darkness fills the empty silence in my room. Do they not feel the way I do at this very moment? Laying here with this empty feeling and no motivation to even move in the slightest. My mind can’t even race because it […]
We all constantly search for things in life that make us happy. Something or someone to bring us genuine joy. I search for that out of so many people. I see the potential and possibilities that lay deep within them waiting to come out. I want to see the best in people and help them as best as I can. When I reach out to receive the same help that I give, however, it’s pushed away. My mental health is too much for people and no one wants to keep trying for me the way I try for others. I search so hard for that […]