40 cigarettes a day
2g of coke a week
a lot of weed a month
Countless bottles a month
The fucked up part, is that i’m not feeling sad… i really don’t care about me
Sometimes i still think about ending myself
I feel like i embraced my misery… i’ve accepted myself
As the fucking piece of shit that i am
I’ve left my boyfriend… i’m still addicted to coke…
I’m really moving on… trying to take another step…
But i’m still dead inside
Somedays i just really want to die…
No reason to be too depressed…
But also no reason to be happy at all…
Right now i’m thinking of hanging myself on a sheet…
I’m sad… i’ve found a job, i’ve found someone who likes me…
My only struggle is with alcohol and coke
Don’t have a reason to use drugs or to drink so much…
I don’t know if i’m gonna be happy someday
I want to disappear , i want to die… […]
So… i love a boy… but in the last 2 weeks and even today…
He’s causing so much pain in me…
And i’m standing here knowing i have to make a choice…
A girl, is sleeping in his apartment, she’s the type of girl that dates a different guy every month…
I really don’t like her
I want to trust that he will not cheat on me…
But i simply can’t do it, this is killing me everyday…
When i thought everything was going to get better…
It got a lot worst instead…
I’m so frustrated with all that…
I’m trying to be sober and all that […]
I don’t know how much time i have left…
i’ve been trying for so long, sometimes i find some strength to live another day…
But this wish of dying always come back
I don’t have any hope that i will get better
I am sure that one day i will kill myself
I don’t want to be this way
I don’t have nothing beside my addictions
I think i’m an idiot
I feel like i’m hurting everyone around me
I smoke, i drink and i use drugs
Nothing can take this pain away
I’m so sad… i don’t know if i can fight against this […]
The day that i’ve come to an end…
My boyfriend left me just 20 minutes ago…
He left me because i was depressed and he couldn’t take it anymore…
This is my third post here…
i’m gonna hang myself today, i’m gonna drink, i’m gonna use cocaine…
I’m not going to be alive this morning…
I’m hanging myself….
I’m sorry to everyone, my friends, my family…
I just can’t take it anymore…
I’m sad, i’m depressed, i’ve been trying suicide for years…
I don’t want to die, but it seems like the only way…
I don’t love anything anymore, i’m empty…
i’m in such much […]
Today, i’ve tried to hang myself…
I think i’m gonna try again once i’m drunk enough, i don’t know if this is a cry for help…
Or maybe is just a warning… Fuck it
i’ve tried, i think i’m gonna hang myself in a sheet…
i’m drinking right now, smoking…
today i’ve used 1,5g of coke…
i’m feeling like i don’t have a place here, i think i am a problem…
no one cares, i just want to die…
i don’t want to be a deception anymore…
i’m sitting here for hours and crying… sip by sip… cigarette after cigarette…
my neck hurts from my […]
Well… I’m a Brazilian boy, 18 years old (English is my second language, but i’ll try my best here.)
My first attempt of ending my life was in 01/01/2014, i tried taking antidepressant pills, i’ve ended up in the hospital for 3 days… my father commited suicide when i was very young, my mother never talks to me, when i was 7 years old i was abused by an older boy… later on i’ve became homossexual… no one knew about all this shit ’til 2 years ago…
i’ve dated a boy who is trying to help me now, i think sometimes that he’s the only person […]
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