shameblamegamenamesame

the attempt i made last night failed and obviously, I woke up this morning.

bye

That’s all I want to write here

I really think I wanted to be a human. I wanted to feel like I was treated like another human being. Like I wasn’t so special, different, strange, weird or out of the ordinary. Not exactly to fit in, but be in the middle if that makes any sense. But, I’m honestly too tired at this point to try and get better. I have been trying. I was trying just last night. But really, I think this will just do me good. This loop has been going on forever and never seems to even want to end. So much hope is promised to me by […]

I have all the things I’m going to use. I know when I’m going to use it and how.
I really don’t want a funeral or a cremation. I don’t really even understand the concept of them. But, I think that’s really my personal perspective. I’m never really sad at a funeral. I’m never sure if the people around me are actually crying because they are really grieving the person who died’s death or if they are just crying so everyone around them doesn’t think they are an insensitive asshole. I think I just envy them. I also think that death is a part of […]