I’m in the darkest place right now. I can’t trust myself, I feel like at any given moment I am going to do something that I will forever regret. I’m triggered by this anger that I can no longer control. I’m tired of dealing with bullshit I’m tired of just simply breathing. I’m so angry and I know this anger isn’t going to go away anytime soon. Seeing a psychologist is not helping at all and this anger only seems to be getting worst. My biggest regret is ever agreeing to marry a piece of shit abuser narcissistic ************!!! Maybe this time he will kill […]
I’m so tired.. not in the “I’m tired from a long day at work” but tired as in.. tired of breathing, sleeping, eating, tired of just being here to here.. tired of being in this body… If only I could wake up tomorrow and be in a new body in a new life….
How do I get back at someone who strangled me many times to the point where I ended up in the emergency room to have the neck and head scans show that I was badly abused/strangled, put a gun to my face, manipulated me, cheated on me, called me crazy until I did come crazy and cut my wrist because I just wanted to die. People tell me that divorcing him and working on myself is a form of getting back at him but I say NO! How does this person get to walk away clean after the many times he abused while I am […]
I question myself everyday and wonder why I’m still here. I struggle with depression. Went from a really bad relationship to an even worst one. I feel lonely in this world and I can’t seem to find myself. At times I feel like I’m completely alone in this world. I feel betrayed by the ones I love the most. I question why is it that those people hurt us the most and don’t seem to care. I think I’m just going insane to the point were I want to commit suicide.
Does any one want to talk ? About anything I don’t care. I just want someone to talk to
why is life a disappointment?  I really want to be gone but it will just show i failed at life. bu whose to judge me nobody knows what i feel so i guess i will disappear  for good
i just want to disappear cant take his bs no more nothing makes me happy. Can i just die. Where is this “god” people talk of?
Crazy is when you think of doing bad things, such as suicide or even murdering someone; yet you don’t start making a plan. Psycho is when you  have a plan and have attempts.  So now all you fuckers out there can call me a  PSYCHO *****..!!!
Why am i so stupid. There’s  something called “you learn from mistakes” but me… I don’t seem to understand that concept. I cut and cut just because i put myself back into the hell hole that  I’ve been stuck in  for the past three years. There’s no  day i dont wake up wishing i was  dead. What else can i do? OD didn’t work. My next plan is to get a gun and shoot myself.
I wish i could just disappear. I am not wanted here no more. Everyone ignores me. I feel like shit and I just cut. I don’t know what the meaning of life is anymore so I guess its time for me to be gone.
Today was the first day of my senior year. It went okay better then what  i expected. I don’t have  many friends nor anyone  i can trust. So here i go to another pointless year. About a year ago my ex boyfriend left the school because i broke up with him because he had cheated on me. I mean it was the right thing to do ? He got all depressed and tried to commit suicide. He got badly injured and ended up getting  hospitalized for about three weeks.  By that time everyone had known at school and i  got blamed for it. i got […]