Still doing no better than before and now actually worse, I truly want to give up on life more than ever before. Covid19, Rioting, Looting, Vandalism, Murders, Children being raped while their rapists go free to commit the same crimes but all I see is arguing over who’s right and nothing is being done. I am still alone and I’m still the same fuckup I have always been. I was bullied physically always getting my ass kicked growing up. Those that went to school with me made fun of me or shunned me since I was different. Failed relationships with women who cheat and lied […]
I sit here and wonder what is wrong with me?
Looking down a the black tunnel and I blindly see
Nothing but darkness and blackness
All I have ever wanted is to just be loved
Women look upon me as some cancer they don’t want
I just want the pain to end
Around the corner of the bend I see the bus.
Just waiting now because soon I will have my ticket.
I have tried to give everything to the relationships I have had
They all have failed which just makes me sad.
I don’t know if this even will make any sense to anyone
Its becoming harder to even remain lucid anymore.
I just wanted someone […]
My parents and fad mily don’t care, all they do is put me down and nothing positive ever comes from them.
I have no friends, and no girlfriend, I am alone in a world where my existence is madness.
I have never belonged, no will I. Each day I grow more and more tired of fighting the world trying to
merely exist. Why should I exist ? I have no purpose, Nothing good ever comes from me.. The moment I think
I have found even a moments happiness it is taken away. I will never find anyone that cares, nobody to love me,
hold me in their arms and tell […]