ALL i want to do is eat and die….right now. i want to eat and eat and i try to squash down the feelings and it never helps and i am just plain TIRED of it all. i am useless. 🙁
Now what am i to do? Ive had depression and suffered for so long. i’m nearly 50 and w/o all hope. what am i to do? the best i can do is sleep as much as i can to just isolate b/c when i am around others i am always getting hurt. its a pathetic merry-go-round that i can get off of. i can even explain how i fee; and i certainly dont know what to do. sorry i have to exist. just sorry.
if there is someone out there as “messed up as i am that would love me as i am?” Sometimes, i wonder this, but i highly doubt it…b/c even the “sad, lonely people….want hot, cute, wonderful people. And, i am none of these. So, i want to die…I’ve tons of other issues too! 🙁
i want to die. why cant i have that privledge. im old. let me go. ive nothing to live for. let me go. why hang around for nothing and no one. let me go. PLEASE?!