I like to think i do more good than harm.
When you feel like your trying so hard to hold it together, sometimes you just give up.
I haven’t self harmed in a long while.
Maybe I turned that aggression outwards instead.
We all have bad days. They get better.
not much better.
but better every day.
I know alot of people on here lack love in thier lives. For whatever reason, the amount of love a human needs to be healthy hasnt been provided, or isn’t being felt. So you come here to scream into your pillow, or get bad advice.
Just a warning:
People don’t always give you the help you need.
People are selfish.
People give you the help they feel like giving you.
Take what they give you, smile, and know that’s all your getting.
Peace and love ya’ll.
So I’m broke. More than half of my worldly posetions were stolen from me. I lost my grants and have doubled the amount of debt I’m in. I don’t have the tools neccesary to do anything other than go to work, go to school, be an alcoholic. Being an alcoholic isn’t even fun anymore because I can’t even do the shit alcy’s do ykno. Like make an ass of themselves in public. It’s been this shitty for a while now, with no end in sight.
So have a drink on me.
It’s free.
cold as fuck yo
Remember that time when you were truly happy. Truly happy despite all the crap in your life. Truly happy despite the people that wanted to see you sad. Especially happy for the people that liked to see you happy. So incredibly happy, that you didn’t even realize you were happy. You just were there, and everything was more or less alright.
wasn’t that a good time.
…
now you have a burden to carry.its all you can think about.
you could have been great.
but your mother is a poor adulterous whore
and your father is a cheating son of a child molester
and your step-mother is a vindictive ****
and you are a weak selfish bastard
nobody wants to see you succeed
When I’m around normals, I feel like nobody could ever understand the amount of hurt I feel. So I come somewhere where nobody knows me. I share my pain. Some people look at it like they couldn’t ever imagine going through something so horrible. Others look and say “wow, what a spoiled brat. I’ve had it twice as hard.”
Only the dead are winners here.
Don’t we all like to lose?
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/11/suicide-is-bad-for-your-health.mp3
This was inspired by iTried it.
I’m a super novice.
like I sttarted last week.
You can’t even sing the words to it.
but this is what i heard when I read your poem.
I wish I was a little bit better.
Life is hard.
Nobody is looking out for your best interests.
Everyone wants to see you fail.
They want you to kill yourself.
They want you to be at your absolute worst.
The closer they have to be to you, the more malicious the intent.
Good Luck.
Without it you will fail.
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emasculated me constantly
framed me for destruction around the house (in addition to the regular mess a child makes)
did interesting food experiments on me (any one with cooking roots to a specific culture knows what im talking about)
and generally made me regret any supposed favor she would do for me
…
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Every friend I have every made has moved on with thier life.
i still live with my parents.
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