It’s been awhile since I’ve been on here and I’ve come to realize I’ve lived too long. I hate who I am. I don’t know why I try. Goodbye world.
I’ve been posting a lot lately. and idontknow. i guess i just wish there was omeone out there that cared about me. someone. anyone. but i don’t want their pity…i just want someone to like me for well me, yeah sure i screw up and don’t deserve anything good but idontknow. i just wish i had someone to hold me as a friend and to help keep me standing..
i live a stupid life. i live a life that just wastes other peoples time and i hate it. i want to die. i want to die.
I swallowed pills last night but i whimped out and made myself throw them up. Why? Idontknow. I’m just an diot and i should already be gone. theres no point of me being here. i just need to leave. sorry
i don’t even know why i try. no matter what i do ill always be this crappy. I’m too fat, I’m too ugly, I’m not smart enough….im worthless. and idk why I’m spending time writing this post because i don’t even matter. sorry if your reading this. i can’t do anything right.
A few months ago a friend of mine told the councilors at school that i was planning to kill myself cause i wanted to tell them before i left…she left it anonymous but the councilors talked to my friends mom and my parents. i couldn’t do anything because i was on constant watch and in order to stop it i would ask to go to the store to just cry…Everyone is trying to get me help- but it’s not helping…all it’s doing is making things worse- I DONT WANNA THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH I SUCK ALL THE TIME… before this-i could control myslef-but now i […]