I’ve been suicidal for ages but I’m too lazy to go out and buy the stuff I need to gas myself, plus the thought of  being around people outside just makes me feel sick, I just can’t face it. So I ‘exist’ at home now all the time and watch daylight follow night over and over again. I’ve now got the point where I literally can’t stand ANYTHING about my existence. When I’m hungry, I’m thinking ‘you useless animal needing food’ and when I’m tired I think it’s pathetic, when I smell cause I haven’t showered I think that I am no more than a […]