Okay, in the past week I’ve run the full spectrum of emotions. From depression, to anxiety, to straight out mania. Right now I’m manic. While I’d rather be manic than depressed. However, rather than those I would rather just feel like myself. Quiet, introverted, shy, but still secure in myself enough to know my worth. Right now I’m everything but that. Excitable, fidgety, talkative, basically sprung as though I’m about to run a 10k. Don’t like this. It’s a trap! I’m telling myself I’m more productive in this state but that’s just a lie. In actuality, nothing gets finished. Everything is left half complete, which […]
It’s here again, and I need a friend.
Times are tough, this life is rough.
Darkness here, nothing is clear.
Live on I will, despite this life.
Hope is gone, though I carry on.
Despite depression, I’ve learned a lesson.
This too shall pass, it will not get me.
There’s a fight in us, few will see.
Even on life’s darkest paths,
The light of hope will come and find us at last.
Depression is a swirling river, hope is a rickety bridge.
One small nail holds it in place.
We will wipe these tears off our face,
Let’s take this bridge together and find our happy place.
The sun will shine, I will go on.
Someday I truly hope […]
I’ve been alone in my depression my entire life. I’ve got social anxiety so I’m basically a recluse. My depression is treatment resistant. The longest a medication has worked for me is two months before it stops and needs to be changed. To add to it I get the worst side effects. Uncontrollable muscle movements slurred speech and worse. I can’t take life anymore. I need a friend and a hug and someone to just hold me while I cry. It just doesn’t end. With everything going bad in my life I want to die so bad but I’m too big a coward to kill […]