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by Sparkle Dolls 10/2/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

Hello friends 🙂

So things have gone up and down repeatedly in the past week. I was contemplating ending my life last Thursday. And I obviously didn’t– I was in a bit of a depressed daze, I guess. But I decided to give my “new life” a go. Recently I put in a shit load of effort and got a really fantastic job in the city, a job a lot of people would kill for. I’ve been so busy with that lately. Seems like things should be great for me. And I guess they are. Only I’m now more seriously suicidal than I’ve ever been. Why? Who […]

10/2/2014 27 comments

I’m thinking I might die tonight.

by Sparkle Dolls 9/25/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

Yeah… Tonight seems good.

9/25/2014 17 comments

It makes me sad when my mother ignores me.

by Sparkle Dolls 9/23/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

I know she cares and I know she loves me. But it still makes me sad when I try so hard to talk to her and make her happy and make her laugh and she just plain ignores me and plays with her phone, like a kid. It makes my heart hurt.

Just wanted to share that so someone, anyone, in the world knows. I hide too many feelings. I lie too much, mostly to myself.

9/23/2014 5 comments

Seems like I have a very bright future ahead of me.

by Sparkle Dolls 9/20/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

Things have turned around lately. My life has done a complete 180. It’s great.

So why do I still want to die.

9/20/2014 11 comments

by Sparkle Dolls 9/18/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

I actually came on here tonight for the first time in a week or so to make a post about some stuff that’s happened lately in my life… and now my head is just too overwhelmed by the utterly repulsive tragedy that’s taken place today/tonight involving a really awesome person.

So instead of crapping on about my own troubles, I’m just gonna leave this post here so we can all maybe give a thought to that special person today/tonight, because this is their day now and they deserve to be remembered.

Rest easy.

9/18/2014 9 comments

I want to die somewhere magnificent.

by Sparkle Dolls 9/8/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

Somewhere pretty or somewhere energising.

9/8/2014 25 comments

Rest in paradise Simone Battle

by Sparkle Dolls 9/7/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

Beautiful and talented girl. You hid your pain so well. I know you’ve found your peace now.

9/7/2014 2 comments

Violent ends

by Sparkle Dolls 9/6/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

There’s always so much talk about painless ways to go… Does anyone here fantasise about more violent deaths? I’ve always wanted to go out with a bang. I want to stare death in the face and welcome it with a smile. I want the last thing I feel to be adrenaline streaming through my veins.

9/6/2014 18 comments

by Sparkle Dolls 9/4/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

Everyone falls asleep at night around me and I’m left alone in the dark with my thoughts and the sound of the traffic outside. Sometimes I wonder what the lives of the people in the cars outside are like. Not sleeping gives you so much time to think.

9/4/2014 6 comments

So much somber.

by Sparkle Dolls 9/1/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

It’s beautiful in such a twisted and haunting way, how there are so many people around the world right now; so many sad people… who are all thinking at the same time, and for their own reasons, “I want to die”. And they’re all so alone. And just a tiny handful of them, out of a sea of people, travel to this website. I wish I could hug one of you. That would be something really special.

I hope everyone makes it through tonight/today and smiles at least once.

9/1/2014 2 comments

I’m so scared.

by Sparkle Dolls 8/17/2014

written by Sparkle Dolls

I’ve always been independent. Independent and mature, people called me. Even when I was a little girl. And I’ve always been the type of person that likes to be alone a lot of the time. I’m tough, I’m strong, and I stand alone. I don’t think about love very often. I don’t want a relationship or to get married; at least not now. I’m eighteen years old; I’m just a baby, people tell me. And that never made sense to me. Wasn’t I the “mature” one? But it all makes sense when it comes down to those moments when everything is dark, both outside my […]

8/17/2014 7 comments