I’ve had depression/anxiety as a result of childhood trauma for over 15 years. This is the first time I’ve ever posted about this, anywhere online, not because I haven’t wanted to but because I’m so ashamed. I’m ashamed about a lot of things. Things I’ve done to keep myself safe (I’m in a long term and positive relationship with my first and only lover, because it’s taken me years to trust someone that much to allow them to get close to me, physically and emotionally). I’m ashamed of being a yoyo of emotions and randomness, sometimes depressed, sometimes anxious, sometimes suicidal, sometimes doing ok. I’m […]