im feeling really crap. small, petty comments upset me yesterday and now I have become self aware of a suicide method that has been at my disposal for the last 13 years. pain free too, I am a bit bothered by the fact that the medicine that keeps me alive can also take it away. I hope to not get into a position where I even think of using it. I need some sort of help to keep my mind busy. sitting in this stupid house gets my mind wandering
