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StuckInThisBody

I cannot be changed. My soulmate, the love of my life and the only one who ever really knew me, killed himself. All I've wanted since that day was to join him. We both had been suicidal practically since birth; always there was a black funeral procession in our hearts. I tried once, he saved me. He tried and succeeded. He left me on my own. There is no secret to enduring each moment after your soulmate dies. You just walk like a zombie, unhappy and miserable, until by the mercy of the universe you close your eyes and never wake up.

I promised I’d follow him into the dark… Rabbit Hole

by StuckInThisBody 11/20/2012

written by StuckInThisBody

for the first time in 18 months I saw the love of my life in action-via video. It was filmed just months before I met him. he was so happy, smiling and laughing. i recalled that smile, remembered that laugh. felt that feeling he gave me. we just lied in bed all day holding each other. but underneath we felt the same thing. we walked in on me once as I was vomiting up a large amount of pills. my liver will never be the same. I watched his eyes fade over the months as he sunk deeper into PF. I followed him down the […]

11/20/2012 1 comment